I tend to get a little teary when I just sit and watch Xan sleeping. It is at those moments that God seems to remind me of the miracle and blessing that she is. Yes, she is adopted and that makes her just wonderful to us and perfect for our family....but it's not that particular thing that moved me today. It was reflecting on just how amazing God is in His creation and intimacy with each one of us. Think about it......He knows the number of hairs on her head. I received a devotional earlier today (which could help explain why my thoughts went where they did) and it just moved me so I've reworded some of it and inserted Xan's name. It's just AMAZING to ME!
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God knew what Xan would look like and who would welcome her. He knew how much Xan would weigh, what her cry would sound like, and whether she would be bald or have a head full of hair. (Psalm 139:16)
He knows how Xan will spend her days—what her hobbies and interests will be, what her job will be, and who she will share her days with. He knows the days Xan will spend honoring Him and the days she will wish she could do over. (Psalm 139:2-3)
God knows every word Xan will say before she even says it. The nice words and not-so-nice words. The angry words and the words of encouragement. The times she should have held her tongue and the times she will think of the right words to say hours too late. He knows the times she will speak up on His behalf, and He sees the times she will be too shy and unsure to speak. (Psalm 139:4)
God knows of every hair on Xan's head, which the Bible tells us are numbered. God knows every detail of her, His marvelous creation. He shaped her sweet little button nose, knows the ridges on her fingernails, and sees the blemishes she will one day try to hide. He truly loves Xan. (Matthew 10:30)
He knit Xan together in her mother’s womb. He knows Xan better than we, her parents. He knows the parts she won’t show anyone else. He sees the tears no one else sees. He will hear the dreams and frustrations no one else hears. He knows Xan, inside and out. (Psalm 139:13)
He knows how Xan will spend her days—what her hobbies and interests will be, what her job will be, and who she will share her days with. He knows the days Xan will spend honoring Him and the days she will wish she could do over. (Psalm 139:2-3)
God knows every word Xan will say before she even says it. The nice words and not-so-nice words. The angry words and the words of encouragement. The times she should have held her tongue and the times she will think of the right words to say hours too late. He knows the times she will speak up on His behalf, and He sees the times she will be too shy and unsure to speak. (Psalm 139:4)
God knows of every hair on Xan's head, which the Bible tells us are numbered. God knows every detail of her, His marvelous creation. He shaped her sweet little button nose, knows the ridges on her fingernails, and sees the blemishes she will one day try to hide. He truly loves Xan. (Matthew 10:30)
He knit Xan together in her mother’s womb. He knows Xan better than we, her parents. He knows the parts she won’t show anyone else. He sees the tears no one else sees. He will hear the dreams and frustrations no one else hears. He knows Xan, inside and out. (Psalm 139:13)
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Yes, I know that all of these same things apply to me and everyone else but today.....Lord I will praise YOU because Xan is fearfully and wonderfully made! Thank you for allowing me to be her Momma.
