Sunday, May 8, 2011

2 Months, Facebook and Mother's Day

So......embarrassed that I just looked at my blog and it's been 2 months since my last post.  I don't know how long it's going to take me to just admit that I'm not good at blogging.  I have lots of "great" ideas that float around in my head about a blog post but somewhere between there and actually sitting down with my computer and making it happen I choke.  Well what do you do after you choke? You are supposed to get up and wipe yourself off and start fresh.  So here I am, freshly brushed off and starting fresh.

I've committed to a 30 day break from facebook and it's been a bit refreshing to not feel that "need" to sit down each day and catch up on things {that until facebook I would have never known and probably never missed not knowing it}.  That being said, I'm not going to lie and say I haven't been curious about my besties and familiy that I keep up with via fb.  I posted on my wall that if anyone needed me they could email me and I haven't gotten one single email so I"m guessing that I'm not missing anything earth shattering.  I'll be back to FB in June unless I decide that this way of life is better for me......I"m guessing my curiosity will win and I'll be back getting my daily fix just like the rest of you information junkies. :-)

Happy Mother's Day!  It's Sunday afternoon here in China and my girl is sleeping soundly so I poured myself a nice big diet coke and decided to get back on this horse.  We've had a good day here and it started with Xan wishing me a Happy Mother's Day about 5 or 6 times between the time we got up and when we left for church.  If she thought about it she would just tell me stinking sweet!  I know I've said it before but I am so blessed to have that girl call me Momma.  After church we had lunch with some friends and then home for a nice Sunday nap.  Stan works on weekends so it's usually just us girls hanging out and today was pretty much that way. It has been nice to reflect some today on being a mom and seriously what a blessing and daunting responsibility it is.  I just can't imagine trying to do it without relying on Christ to guide and lead us in this life long endeavor.  I fail every single day and today was no different but by His grace I'm allowed to continue and hopefully one day see this sweet little one He has entrusted to us come to know Him.

I've also spent some time today reflecting on the life of my Grandma who we lost only 6 short months ago.  I miss her.  I haven't lived near her since 2003 but I miss talking to her.  I miss knowing that she was going to be excited for me and whatever I was doing or experiencing.  I miss her.  It's still surreal that she isn't here or there...and its sad.  I miss her.  She was far from perfect and had no trouble at all sharing her opinions but I still miss her.  I'm sad for my aunts too.....this is their first Mother's Day with no Momma.  They didn't buy a card for her this year......they didn't have her over for lunch.......they didn't call her early this morning to tell her they love her.  Instead, they will probably be sad and melancholy as they remember her or visit the cemetery and place a beautiful arrangement there for her.  They miss her too.

And because I've got some catching up to do on posting's a picture of me and my girl when we were at an Easter brunch/egg hunt.

Chat with ya later-


we are the spencers said...

so glad tp see a blog post from you! happy mother's day, hope you had a great day! love that pic of you and xan, so sweet. miss you and love you!

Anonymous said...

It was so good to see an updated post, I follow it all the time. I hope that you have a Happy Mother's Day and Xan is just so precious, you are truly blessed. Miss you-

Anonymous said...

Hey Megan! I thought about you today b/c I thought about your grandma being gone this year. Love you and miss you! Love this picture of you and Xan. Beautiful girls! We are blessed!

Anonymous said...

Oops, Megan! That last comment was from Marilyn!

Kimberly Adams said...

Missing you on facebook and so glad to see your blog post! :)

Anonymous said...

Megan, I am way late reading this but it made me happy and a little sad too! Love you, Xane